[ It's hard to explain how his explicit forgiveness makes her feel. Something like relief, tainted with resentment and guilt, all under the blanket of how much she still misses him. ]
I really didn't mean t'hurt you. [ Quietly: ] I care about you. I want you.
[Moments like this are explicit evidence in why it can be such a blessing to know when people believe what they're saying.]
I didn't doubt that for a second.
[Given that it'd exploded so quickly, into so much hurt, that at least was clear. It's apology enough. She doesn't need to say "sorry" for him to find it writ elsewhere, in other words.]
[ It's a little humbling, his certainty. She'd never really felt certain of things, even with Madison, and God, had she loved Madison. It makes her voice almost self-conscious, a faint crack in her invulnerable veneer when she half-asks: ]
[It's easy to be certain, when you're him. It's easy to act and think you know everything and doubt only in rare cases. Unflinching self-assurance, even when crossing the line. The Man Without Fear.]
Yes. Soon. [One way or another, they'll have to.
The pause that follows is long, because: he doesn't want to hang up. But there's nothing more to say right now. Not without making it worse.]
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voice;
I really didn't mean t'hurt you. [ Quietly: ] I care about you. I want you.
voice;
I didn't doubt that for a second.
[Given that it'd exploded so quickly, into so much hurt, that at least was clear. It's apology enough. She doesn't need to say "sorry" for him to find it writ elsewhere, in other words.]
Come back when you're ready?
voice;
[ It's a little humbling, his certainty. She'd never really felt certain of things, even with Madison, and God, had she loved Madison. It makes her voice almost self-conscious, a faint crack in her invulnerable veneer when she half-asks: ]
See y'soon then?
voice;
Yes. Soon. [One way or another, they'll have to.
The pause that follows is long, because: he doesn't want to hang up. But there's nothing more to say right now. Not without making it worse.]
Good-bye, Lil.